I Was There

I was there when I realized

I had arrived

But It was too late!

I think the bus was gone before I had

even decided to leave

But if that is true then 

that’s unfair

Oh, that word is a ridiculous one, isn’t it?

Un fair means what? So I leave

Like tulips stop living after spring has noticed

And leaves leave trees after it has enjoyed its flourish

It’s like loving a woman, but nobody understands the beast

She is poison because when you drink too much of her

She kills you. She makes you warm and then she leaves

Like those leaves

And then men, when you love a man

He finally understands you a little then it gets too scary

So he runs under the bed and wishes he never came out of the womb

He hates not to be understood but for you to understand that- hell

(They need you to be a ghost?)

get them taken care of 

but then make sure you leave no trace behind, will you!?

It’s a puzzle. 

I was there when I realized

I have arrived

She is on top of that tree and he is under ground, right below.

But I think I have it all wrong.

I have changed (the map) because since the bus done leave

I won’t stand here being stood up.

SO with her poison and his will to stay confused

“Only one thing at a time woman!”

I had arrived here because I am still wishing to be

My self in this world… and you be a man in this maiden earth

I should care - so I do

And I write you on my books so that you notice me

A beast, a ghost and you misunderstood and puzzled by it. 

I Stroll With My Parts All Apart

I strolled with my head in my hand.

I fell with my heart in my arms

I stood with my chest on my back

So I live with my parts all apart

And people like that- don’t they?

Is it because I am unusual.

Unusually stomped

Breast-less lover

Beastly thoughtful

And unforgettably fucked up

That, that attracts you?

I stroll with my parts all apart because

I see you so perfectly placed and in tune

And I can’t bare looking like you in this deserted place

SO I walk this way and that way so you can see that I am-

I, I am a dream in this dreadful place

I am standing like a miracle

Placed

I am, standing and you look at me

As if there is something “unique”

But what you experience is you in me

But I am stubborn

Because I was alone when I came to earth

They took me away

And made me, me for a whole day

I was sent to this cubicle and my umbilical cord

Broke, in his hands, in her hands

So I stroll with my parts all apart

And give thanks (to the above)

That I am a gift to the world

Or at least I think, you think?

I stroll with all my dreams and I see them leave me

I fall with my heart in my arms, but I hold it tight

Not to suffocate it but to embrace it

And I stand here naked, clothed with embarrassment

That you haven’t noticed

All of me

Here standing with my parts all apart

You can’t stop until you feel the weight of my shoulders

Lighten

Because that is why this place was created

To deliver me to me.

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When I love /// He is a Man

When I love

I love for nothing

I feel an intense feeling and then it turns

Into wingless birds

Grounded

Filled with truth and boundless on earth

It says “come” this love

When I love

I let you hold me

When I Love

I love for nothing

Because there

this feeling is bountiful

And spiritful

When I love

I am a child and know nothing

But I feel helpless and then

I realize I love

So when you love

That is the lesson learned

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My father is alone

With absolutely no head

He leads the pack to territories

Of danger… underground bombs?

The air there is…

If you breathe it you will feel a tightness in your chest

And you will probably die

My father is alone because

I left

Because I don’t understand why

Can’t you just SLOW DOWN!

I begin to under- stand the

Reason but I have to admit

I don’t like it

My father is not alone because I left

He’s alone because he’s misunderstood-

He is a man.